8. what i owe the bird in the freezer aisle I thought I caught you seeing me see you But I don’t know And these days aint the heart just like a bird in the grocery store they all ignore But don’t you think that it’s here in the mirror Where we are carved yeah we are carved and maybe i’m not an endangered specie after all sure there’s a genius in freezing completely and playing it safe but these days Don’t it seem you gotta be a good kisser just to Really be afraid Sure heaven has a mandate that I’m pissed at But I don’t know No I don’t know I guess I owe it to the bird in the freezer aisle And I should let it go But don’t u think it’s here in the mirror where we so gayly warm our claws for oh such a shadow fest chewing Would u think I was lying to myself To play it safe? Sure there’s a couple novels I’m pissed at god i hated "zero's greed" and also "zero's watching sound” was a big disappointment and Hey I’m sorry We never met up but i was working really hard on my critique of the zero series it was almost like my critique of zero was a way to get closer to you without having to actually face myself in the process i guess Zero courted me well and now my My hands are grass To the touch and all changing And a hundred swim spots are calling me Now in broken dutch Zero courted me well and I I just gotta load my wheel ! and these days A hundred broken swim spots all call me names and they all find a kind of sport in my renunciation And I love how even though i am so good at being a whole integer and at breaking zero’s balls with it (i’m probably about one of five or so of the top critics of zero in the field) there is still something zero needs from me i love how How’s there’s a smallness inherent in The mirror's thirst it can't do without me don't you love how i am so small and zero isn’t at all but the whole idea of what we come from it's impossible without me or you tasting it? and the mirror's kiss? how the genius of the kiss is in between the known and the unknown? i forgot this cool line about if i am right or wrong and i actually think that's a really attractive thing about me and my process in the world write drunk and edit drunker is the edit i made in my sober process but don't you talk shit on my crisis a lot of really cool persons in the world have a cool idea about why or why not and damn just look at me and how i am here now Oh and these days how I have made a Sport of crisis in the freezer aisle with the birds all landing all on my head and shoulders and my outstretched arms and I'm a little bit surprised at how this doesn't get me many dates And I know the narrative is cat-calling me me from my other side the other side of the mirror flexes its jaws so gayly and these days the sexiness of the other side it's where i am when i am a whole integer for you and all the good little things where i am forgetting them on purpose But how the hell u end up upright?! Just put me down Yeah put me down There is a logic in being the one that is renounced That I have come to call home but i have not changed no i have not changed and maybe it's you, me, and the zero's mandate we should really get together and think up a really good apology to this world of possible things let’s stop finding out what we can or can't do i’m not mad i just want to make a little drawing of this one way that you have changed i have changed too and i love how I don't see it couldn't you for just one moment not see it too?